I made it!

This past Friday (May 21st) I did a concert a Minnesota Teen Challenge. Teen Challenge is a Christian organization that helps people overcome their addictions. My whole music career I wanted to become a successful artist, sell lots of records and perform in front of packed houses. And in the past if my records didn't sell or if people didn't come to my concerts I would feel down and depressed and wonder if I was good enough to pursue a career in music. When I started writing songs that were more centered on the gospel and less on myself, my idea of success started to change. I wanted to see people affected by my music in way that brought them closer to Christ. I still had/have that sense of wanting to be successful in a secular sense but on Friday I had a minor revelation.

I talked to a lot of people during and after the concert at Teen Challenge. Their were a number of people that said that they were encouraged, bless or touched by my music. One person came to me and said that he thought that I was as good as Lecrea, Trip Lee and other Christian emcees. He told me that if I kept at it he knew that I would "make it". At that point I remembered some of the conversations that I had earlier, and I remembered seeing tears in people's eyes as I performed "The Struggle" and that's when it hit me. I already "made it".

My true goal is to point people to Christ, and I did that the other day and I make the effort to do that all the time through the music that I write. So there's no need to get down and depressed if my records don't sell or if I don't rap in front of large crowds because I've already made it, I have already reached success because by the grace of God I spread the gospel through music and I get to be used as instrument of God. And that's is the true reason why I do this... Praise God!